Rikku was staring at the floor. "I haven't been back there," she said. "Not since. Maybe I should go back. I c-could ..."

She shook her head again. "I could go back," she said. "But n-not with her. Because I'd have to ... pretend it was okay, because she'd be worried, and I wouldn't want to upset her, and so I'd have to act normal so she wouldn't feel bad, and I don't ........"

She had nearly said 'I don't think I can', but that wasn't true, and maybe that was okay to say.

"I don't want to," she said. There was something terrifying about saying that. And freeing.

She glanced over at Reno. "Have you ever ........ I m-mean. Midgar? Have you?"