"It ain't that I'm afraid of not bein' a Turk," Reno said, and it was abrupt. A sudden realization that just sort of smacked him in the face, right there. "It's that I'm afraid I'm gonna forget how to be me."
A pause. And a frown. And a shrug.
"And if I lose me, then... I lose everything else. I mean. I dunno what I mean. Just maybe I thought I was doin' somethin' right. All these good things start fallin' into my life, and I never had that before, when I was that other guy. I don't wanna go back to that. Just means I'd be all... Nothin' again."
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Date: 2008-10-10 07:13 am (UTC)A pause. And a frown. And a shrug.
"And if I lose me, then... I lose everything else. I mean. I dunno what I mean. Just maybe I thought I was doin' somethin' right. All these good things start fallin' into my life, and I never had that before, when I was that other guy. I don't wanna go back to that. Just means I'd be all... Nothin' again."
This part was not easy to say.
"I don't wanna be alone."