"It wasn't ..." She looked up at him, finally, trying to hold his stare. Hard when his eyes were that sure they were right. "Bad stuff happens. It wasn't any better or any worse than anybody else's. It's just mine. I had a family, and most of them are still alive. I have friends. There are people who don't have either. I don't need to be feeling sorry for myself. There's not enough time in the day for that."
She looked down, suddenly, attention drawn back to the green-painted toes and a bitter laugh. "They never saw me cry. Not when they burned Home, not when they tried to execute me, not ever. Not Them."
Not even when Keyakku was lying dead at her feet.
"I don't ... need help," she said finally. "I don't mean -- I mean, if I did, I'd ... want your help. You do help. You ... I called you, with Mel. Because. I watched her die and I couldn't stop seeing it. I just needed you to be there. I don't need you to do this or not do that or ... I'm okay. I'm not gonna just ... weigh us down with ... hey, remember bad stuff happened to me? Yeah, it still did. Hasn't changed. That's ..."
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Date: 2008-07-27 10:06 am (UTC)She looked down, suddenly, attention drawn back to the green-painted toes and a bitter laugh. "They never saw me cry. Not when they burned Home, not when they tried to execute me, not ever. Not Them."
Not even when Keyakku was lying dead at her feet.
"I don't ... need help," she said finally. "I don't mean -- I mean, if I did, I'd ... want your help. You do help. You ... I called you, with Mel. Because. I watched her die and I couldn't stop seeing it. I just needed you to be there. I don't need you to do this or not do that or ... I'm okay. I'm not gonna just ... weigh us down with ... hey, remember bad stuff happened to me? Yeah, it still did. Hasn't changed. That's ..."